Tuesday, Nov. 26, 2002 - 6:23 p.m.

i think nitrogen needs some recognition because it's not as popular as oxygen. even tho we breath it and its 78% of the earth's atmosphere.

the problem with me is that i think everything and everyone worthwhile should be appreciated for whatever they do. it sounds funny yeah. but it pisses me off.

i almost burnt the butter fudge cake yesterday. it didnt taste nuffin like butter. the box said to add a stick of butter and i did. but the mixture was too thick, like chocolate mousse and didnt ask for enough water. i thought it was messed up but it was supposed to be that way.

anyway, baked a batch of 12 cupcakes and a cake with the left over batter. i couldnt resist not adding some water to the cake so i jus added some.

it wouldnt bake. it took an hour to bake.

i actually did burn 3 cupcakes. weird. only 3. all of them were in the same pan. but i guess the 3 of them were far in the back where the heat was unbearable.

my dad asked me to make that cake. he brought it home like 5 and iftar was 5:30 ish. so i did it anyway. he kept checkin the oven every 5 minutes. i swear.

men. will. never. understand. women.

and u dont need experience to be able to utter that statement either.

hmm.

so i've been studying like mad lately. finished biology and on the last test of geography. writing the paper for written communication. subject is gona be discrimination against muslims but i might change it.

they shipped out the second math course. yikes.

then i'll have 4 core courses and 5 electives left. at this pace, i'll be done in june, when i turn 16.

im thinkin about taking my SAT's 3 times in 3 consecutive months. i want the bestest score. and i wanna cool scholarship so i can show the world i actually accomplished something.

sometimes i think i dont care what people think of me, but then, i do. i cant stand it when people think i'm stupid cuz iknow i'm not.

sure. i've done a lot of stupid things over the years. i think i just might have learnt from someof them. its all cool i guess.

i dont even know how that subject came up.

ah well.

this morning my aunty called and said my cousin was over from South Carolina for a day. she'd dropped her baby off there cuz she had to go dye her hair with her friend.

lol.

so i went over. the baby started crying as soon as i entered. so my aunt told me to takemy scarf off cuz that was probably skaring her. so i did. but she still kept crying.

but then my aunt let go of her and thebaby wanted me to pick her up.

she thought i would take her out.

all thistime i was thinkin somethin was wrong with me. i even checked my face in the mirror.

so then she would ask me to walk her around. but after a while i lost my patience. i couldnt stand carrying her around the house.

i was lucky. she started to feel sleepy around the same time i lost my patience.

wonder whats wrong with me. i cant standbabies. wat the hell went wrong???

i guess i'm just going thru a phase.

the khatmul quraan/shabina is on the 27th ramadan. duh. thats this upcoming sunday at my masjid. i was thinking of making some desseert..

...but nah.

i wanan goto the khatmul quraan at tara's masjid. its on tuesday. i wonder if there'll be anyone around to take me.