Saturday, Nov. 23, 2002 - 12:42 p.m.

riiiiiiiiight so i cant believe i could be soo stupid. ok well i sorta can believe it. i've been taking my pills on an empty stomach with a sip of water. it made me throw up. i did the same thing two times apparently i didnt learn the first time.

and i was wondering what the hell went wrong with my immune system cuzzz alhamdulilllah i rarely get sick, like no colds or flu's or warms or anythin like that.

so now, i must advise everybody to please read the label on their medicines/pills before swallowing any of it.

cuz most of them are weird, like AVOID DIRECT CONTACT WITH SUNLIGHT WHILE TAKIN THIS MEDICATION...etc etc.

anyway.

so i've been studying like mad for the past few days trying to make up my one month slackin off period. and let me tell you, u dont wanna ever slack off ever again in your life. i went through a 1000 page biology book and 5 workbook supplements in two days. (i'd already done 55 pages before BTW) it was hell. and lemme tell u dont wanna be homef0oled either. 8 tests. i didnt even learn anything. at least not the amount i should've if i went thru that much material (crap).

so then i dreamt last night i was thinking of throwing my books away. had a garbage bin right in fronta me. almost threw them away. ALMOST. HOW COME I REALLY DIDNT?

how could i be so insane?

tsk tsk. isnt that somethin to ponder about? tis world if fulla mysteries aint it??

called the school again. they didnt lemme talk to the AP, like she would've been any help anyways. instead i got to talk to this lady who thought transferring me to the media center wassa good idea, since she couldnt help me out. so im like repeating the same thing over and over again, I ALREADY TALKED TO THE MEDIA CENTER, I NEED TO KNOW OF ANY OTHER VOLUNTEERING POSITIONS but she still dont listens!!!! she's like can i have ur phone number? ill have mrs.weirdo-name-i-didnt-get-but-sounded-familiar call you back. and i'm like isnt she the one in the media center? shes like yeah. im like going crazy by this time. so i explain her everything all over again and shes like OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! yea click

well anyways, in the end she told me they didnt need anymore help anywhere else in the school, but i should STILL come in on the wednesdays and ask around.

and then she said i should start in december.

oooookkkkkaaaaaay. time to contact the hospital.

made something like biryani yesterday. i cant pronounce it but its not really biryani. its jus..rice..with chicken already in it. made it all by myself too. mom jus put in the rice.

turned out i forgot the oil. but it tasted actually pretty good so im thinkin ill never add oil to the foods i cook again

i mean desi recipes have 2500 calories per quarter plate anyway.

didnt goto taraweeh. couldnt. sooo instead i took my books over to mycousins. he was desperately in search of a pair of socks when i entered the place. the sight was almost funny.him ransackin thru the dryer.

hey u'd have to be there to actually laugh at it. alright!

so then i sat there doin my bloody school workkkk. america's funniest home video's was on. i decided to take a peak at it. honestly i never thought them videos were funny enough. i mean, they always showed a kid or animal falling down while playing or something. well all the times i was watching anyway

it turned out hillarious they were givin out awards for the best videos. and me and my aunt were crackin up bad.

first time in a loooong while i've had such a good laugh. felt GOOD.

then my dad picked me up. they were trying to hide their icecream stained napkins somewhere in the car, and the windows were open so that the aroma could air out.

but hellooooooooooo i'm 15 years old and i've been consious of junk food around me since i was a fetus.

(wait, the thought is just skary..me a fetus. na uh!)

so im like whatever. people dont usually care abouit me anyway. its kinda sad if u think about it. i mean, how many people actually took me out for ice cream in my whole entire life?

no one. haha. no one took me ALONE.

hmph. u'd think i'm that unlikable.