Wednesday, Nov. 06, 2002 - 4:04 p.m.

Ok it’s the first of Ramadan, yeah, and I’m not supposed to be online because my parents said not to! Well, my mom did anyway.

But I’m online anyway.

So I went to the masjid yesterday for taraweeh, yeah qudsia, by god, SHE GETS TO GET OUTTA THE HOUSE!

Anyways, so I went. But I had taken them atarax meds. Not good. I only prayed 8 rakaahs. =( I was feeling dizzy and drowsy. And weak..with pain inmy joints and bones. God it was horrible!

But like, insha’Allah today I’ll finish my Salah. Hey, at least I got intention..

There were a lot of new ppl at the masjid, mostly Palestinians. So when I gotready to leave, and stepped out the door, an old palestanian lady came up to me and started talking in Arabic. I think. Yeah.

And I tried explaining I didn’t speakthe language, but she just went on. Anyway, she was tryin to tell me something about the rain I figured.

And I lost my niqaab. =( too bad huh? It seemed to have vanished. It was raining like crazy so I put it up to dry on the chair and left for my prayers..

But twas gone when I came back.

Ah well inshaAllah khair.

And then iwent to publix and got me a sub. Awwyeah. At9:30 at night. But I never finished it. Cuz I don’t feel like eating in sehri. Its weird but I feel nauseated. But once the firstbites down its alright..

Alhamdulillah I don’t feel like I’m fasting. Which is very good because the year before last my mom used to force me, and all the years since I turned 11. she would force me and id idnt wanna fast. lol. But I did it anyway, on one condition. I wouldn’t stop whining. Aye I wuzza kid!

Ahh iguess I got some good deeds from back there. Hopefully. Insha’Allah

This morning I went to sams club to order my contact lenses. This time they gonna be honey colored, and NOT bloody dark green, which didn’t even show before.so I ordered them and I’ll get em insha;Allah next week.

Harry potter was playing on one of the tv’s there. Ive memorized all the lines by now. Ive seen It almost 20 times I swear. I cant wait for the new movie to come out but its gonna be in Ramadan.. oh well.

Like im not even supposed to be talking about movies. God whats wrong with me?

((((((((((everything))))))

too many memories have been stirring up. Rising from my mind, like, the dead from a grave. Memories are supposed to be good and all but the fact that they hurt like hell doesn’t make it any better…

gtg now. Iftar preparations.