Monday, Nov. 04, 2002 - 4:35 p.m.

Jeez. At times, the cyber world seems so small you’re scared you’ll run into one of your 5th dorky cousins or something, but other times it seems so freakin widespread its scary. I was at someone’s blog, I think it was Witch, yeah her. So like, I followed the links on there and got lost somewhere, reading blogs of people I hadn’t even heard of. I only read diary’s of people I’ve known online, like forum buddies, and of course, my girls Afshan and Tara. but it’s scary to read about the lives of strangers around the world sometimes, it’s weird! The culture and stuff…eek. Like there were some Singaporean or Malaysian or some folks, and I was half lost in trying to figure out what the hell they were on about.

Some cultures freak me out. not just cultures, countries as well. Take China for instance, it sounds scary to me. Imagine! No one speaking English, hell, no one speaking Urdu either. You’d be lost, you’d probably get on the wrong plane home if you racked your brains trying to read Chinese. God! The thought just freaks me out.

And plus, the food. Chinese food is good, but only the style we get here, with an American or desi touch. I don’t think I would ever be able to eat real Chinese food, like they say, real pizza Italian style is a total different recipe. Ok, I’d probably be able to stand something like pizza, I mean, after all, it is pizza, right? but hell, Chinese. These people eat frogs and eels and such crap.

Ewww. I think I’m gonna barf if I think too much about it.

So like, when my dad was a youngin, he was on his way to Pakistan for a routine visit, right? on the way, he had to stop over at an airport in France, and they’d promised they’d give him a free place to stay and all. Cuz there was some kinda mix up prior to the flight. Anyway, so like he goes to his hotel and orders some food. And theres like, not one single bloody French person who can speak English. The menu was In French for gods sake. You’d think these people would give the foreigners a thought, I mean, it’ll only earn them some more business..

But yeah, so my dad ordered whatever, like he just pointed to this item on the menu, cuz he didn’t know what they were on about.

15 minutes later, a knock on the door, a roasted ham, and all this junk to go with it. Wine, etc etc.

my dads like what the hell? So he gets pissed and goes down to a café and orders something to munch on. So much for the free dinner.

Anyway.

So yesterday, my mom and brother started rearranging my room. Like what the hell? Without my friggin permission. I got pissed, but then did it my way. Its not much of a change, but I’ve left space for a new computer desk. Or maybe I’ll just use the one my brother keeps in his room for showing off. He barely uses it. So yeah, so you’re probably wondering why in gods name I need a computer desk when I don’t have my own computer in my room? Well its not my own computer anymore anyway, my dads the admin on it. Sheesh.

But guess what? I’m planning on getting a new computer. Hell yeah. With all the works and shit. Dell is my soul mate. They have some of the coolest deals and payment plans, so I won’t feel like they robbed me off in an instance. One of the deals is 23 bucks a month, no interest nothing like that. I’m so excited, though it seems farfetched.

Ahem, I’m just waiting for eid.

AND my parents consent. I mean, I do need their permission. Everything I do has to be controlled around here. You know if I had my own payment option I wouldn’t worry about getting in trouble I’d just be like what the heck? Order the damn computer and get it over with. But I don’t got no payment source. No checks, no credit cards. And I’m not broke either. I’m just not that age.

I’m still a youngin.

Or so a lotta people would like to think anyway. Hey, I’m pretty mature for my age, right?

Whatever.

So like, my dream computer has all the cool stuff. The best keyboard, cd rw, mouse, digital camera,a hell lot of memory, and whatever I’m able to find affordable.

But its just, like a dream so far. I hope I can get this. I’ve been planning for days now.

My parents probably will say no, because they don’t trust me or whatever. Long story behind it.

Anyway.

I changed the image on my template to greyscale in Gif Works. it looked pretty darn cool, so I think I’m going to customize the whole template all over again. Let’s just hope I can get it right. it’s gonna be grey, black and white, instead of this pathetic green. Then, if the greyscale doesn’t look good, I’ll change the template to something else, altogether…

AND I STILL DON’T GOT A DIRECT LINKING PLACE.

Oh wait, oh yeah. YEAH! Amp, I forgot. He said he’d help me out with it. Hmm, should I take it or should I not. I mean, I don’t wanna take up space on his domain or hosting space…

I can’t just take it like that. that’s like..bad

So like, one of my good friends sister got divorced. Bummer. Oh well, the guy was a freakin fob dumb ass anyway. I never liked him. he was so much older than her too. But she’s heartbroken cuz she was madly in love with him and she can’t forget the 3 years they spent together YADA YADA YADA.

Okay, I mean, I can understand that. but uhh, he was a jerk!

So why cry a river for him when he’s dumped you?

Okay okay. I’ll be realistic. There’s gonna be pain and all that, hell lot of it. But insha’Allah it’ll be okay.

inshaAllah.

Where is happiness anyway? Huh? What’s up with happiness coming around for a few seconds, then vanishing without leaving a trace. Pisses me off. Seems like NOBODY I know these days is happy.

Its just pathetic.

Yikes. Miracle’s lost somewhere. Gotta go find her.