Friday, Oct. 18, 2002 - 10:01 a.m.

I don’t have time to rant about stupid stuff anymore. Before I only did that to keep me from complaining and boring myself. But, I have more important things on my mind. I don’t know what to write, it’s all so confusing. I don’t know what to do anymore.

I don’t want Ramadan to ever come. it has too many memories. I already mentioned this before, but it’s just to painful. I wanna scream and kick and yell “no ramadan”

But of course that’s not possible.

And then Eid, that’ll have to be so much more worse. Sure it’s a happy day and all, supposed to be anyway..but there’s too many memories.

I don’t want to remember anything.

Nice people are hard to come by in this world. And when they do, they have to be taken away from you.

I don’t understand.

I wish I had never been born, never had come into existence or never grown up from that 5 year old life..cuz that was when everything had started to make sense.

And I don’t like flashbacks.